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It's been years since I've actually taken the time to write a blog. But at the moment it feels like I need to, like something is dying to get out in words and causing this huge blockade that's making it impossible to for me to sit down and just write like I should be able to-like I used to do. Once upon a time I thought the reason I haven't really been able to write was because I moved to kansas and I was constantly bored.

Recently, (back in october) I moved to back Texas and wouldn't you know it, I'm still constantly bored. So I fill my time with pointless tv shows that might actually be melting my braincells but I don't notice because it sinks my time. Only now, on top of the constant boredom I'm constantly worried-worried about the fact I don't have a car, worried about the fact that I'll have to get insurance when I do get a car, worried about not having enough for all my sudden bills and frustrated by the fact I don't have a washer or dryer and have to go to a laundromat to clean clothes (which is more money + gas (which is more money))

And I keep thinking to myself 'One day I'm going to write a book and become a best selling author and I'll be able to make rent and buy a car no problem. I Just need to write a book-I need to get a book published'. I know I can do it but there's a nagging little voice inside that says maybe I can't. Maybe the chills I get from writing don't actually mean anything other than maybe I'm cold. But I get them even in the summer when the air conditioner is off and I just can't imagine doing anything else with my life. But then again, there are days I can't imagine doing anything with my life because honestly I just feel constantly stuck and that some major change is going to have to happen to my financial situation because I need more education before I can get good at anything. But I need more money for more education and it just becomes a vicious cycle.

There's a burning desire at the tip of my fingers every minute of everyday to just sit down and write until my heart explodes. However, I never know what to write and just end up staring at a blank page. I've heard the trick is to write anyway-I get plenty of ideas. My mind runs at about ninety miles a minute and imagination runs even faster so I shouldn't have any trouble just spitting out story after story but I do. I frequently run into the problem of not knowing how to take what I'm thought up and turning it into an actual story. I worry about how to even start-I worry won't be any good and I'll just scrap the idea later. I wonder if writing is even what I want to do with my life or if I'm even as good as I think I am.

I think that I am. Not sure about how other people think of my writing but I do feel it has that distinct voice that all writers have-that I actually could write something that stands out above all the rest. Or do I? I go right back to doubting it and start contemplating ideas for fanfiction instead, only then I start to wonder if that's even any good, looking at some earlier projects is generally pretty cringe worthy and once again my confidence is sapped. So I obsessively hoard books about how to be a good writer and tips to improve your writing and start looking for prompts to practice and still somehow end up with nothing. The advice to 'just write' is a lot harder than anyone gives it credit for being.

I'm not sure where I'm going with this, I had a point but it is three in the morning here and apparently all I could write tonight was about why I can't write on a regular basis. Maybe I'll start to keep up with a blog though, I've read from several sources that it does help to improve writing over time. Already I've written a hell of a lot more than even I was expecting to.

 

 

 

CONAN'S CR CHART UPDATE GUIDE

<font color="red">&hearts;&hearts;</font> - Loves

<font color="red">&hearts;</font> - Family

&spades;&spades;&spades;&spades; - Best Friends

&spades;&spades;&spades; - Friends

&spades;&spades; - Acquaintance

&spades; - No Opinion as of yet

<font color= "red">&diams;</font> - Trusted

<font color="red">&diams;&diams;</font> - Trusted with the Secret

<font color="red">&diams;&diams;&diams;</font> - 100% Trust

&clubs; - Some Level of Respect

&clubs;&clubs; - Deep Level of Respect

&clubs;&clubs;&clubs; - Sherlock Holmes

o - Not entirely sure (Also used if there's an element in the relationship he does not recognize)

x - Dislikes

xx - Really dislikes

xxx - Hates 

xxxx - Black Org Member

 

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AOKO'S CR CHART UPDATE GUIDE

 

<font color= "red">&hearts;&hearts;</font> - Loves/Crush

<font color= "red">&hearts;</font> - Family

<font color= "yellow">&#9733;&#9733;&#9733;&#9733;</font> - Best Friend

<font color= "yellow">&#9733;&#9733;&#9733;</font> - Close Friend

<font color= "yellow">&#9733;&#9733;</font> - Friend

<font color= "yellow">&#9733;</font> - Familiar

<b>X</b> - Frustrating

<b>XX</b> - Dislikes

<b>XXX</b> - Please Stay Away

<b>XXXX</b> - Kaitou Kid >(

 

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Title: From 1887...right?
Author: Kinz
Word Count: 1214
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: I do not own either Detective Conan OR Sherlock.
Spoilers: Uh... Spoilers for BBC Sherlock 2x03?
Characters/Pairings: None.
Notes: Prompt 025. Off the Crossover100 table.

( Are you sure you didn't hit your head? )

"I have a confession to make." The young magician stated as he loosened his tie once they had landed. He brought them to the roof of some hotel far away from the searchlights. Chikage felt her heart start to sink as she watched the clever man pull his tie free and store it his pockets. He didn't elaborate farther on his confession and she feared the worst. She didn't know anything about this man aside from that his name was Kuroba Toichi and that he had kissed her. Why had her hearted managed to sink to the bottom of her chest so fast?

"…You have other jewels in the bottom of your treasure box?" She voiced her fears. Toichi had been in the middle of shrugging off the white jacket when he glanced over at her.

"Hm?" He looked at the distraught look on his gem's face and couldn't help but smile, something she didn't seem to find amusing. "Oh no, nothing of the sort." He continued to smile at her as she perked up just a little. She felt silly at the relief she felt at his words. She had no way to verify that they were true. How could she so easily become such a-such a girl? Yukiko was the girly-girl. Chikage was the strong and independent Phantom Lady that was supposed to be unattainable.

"The truth is," Toichi began as he unbuttoned the cuffs on his blue button-up shirt. "Your sister called and told me she was worried you were falling into a trap."

"..So this was a favor to Yuki-chan?" Chikage deflated a bit, of course Yukiko had a hand in this.

"Of course not. Yukiko-san has been trying to find a way for us to meet for sometime so when she called all in tears for your safety I thought- 'Why don't I impress her sister by saving her life?" He laughed at his own logic while Chikage just stared, incredulously.

"…You're kidding… right?"

"My dear lady." Toichi's toned change to that of the utmost seriousness as he moved over and took her hand in his. "A phantom thief is nothing but honest." He stated, pressing a kiss to the back of her hand. Chikage felt tingles erupting where his lips had touched her hand. She found that she couldn't bring herself to look away from him, she couldn't resist him even as he started to kiss um her arm, leaving tingles in his wake as he moved slowly but surely to the top of her arm with every intention of seizing her lips again.

This man was dangerous, she realized as he had reached her neck. He had a power to make anyone fall in love with him. No one could ever stand a chance against this kind of power and he wasn't showing her any mercy. Her lips locked with his and her thoughts of danger slipped out of her around the same time her hand slipped out his his and she wrapped her arms around his neck.

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